I shed a tear watching a shocked and emotional Jermaine Jackson announce his brothers tragic death to the world
I am so sad for the family and so sad for the fact that the world has lost a unique musical genius but mainly for the fact that Michael Jacksons life was so troubled and filled with pain
His troubled childhood obviously had a massive impact on his life as an adult and I will never understand why he didn't receive more help for his problems
But I do understand his pain
People with "normal" childhoods and loving parents find it so hard to comprehend the trauma suffered by survivors of childhood abuse
His death has got people talking about child abuse once more and I welcome the debate but please remember that not all abused are also abusers - there are millions of people struggling to cope with their past whilst living healthy wholesome lives
Whatever he did or didnt do in his private life I really hope that his legacy will be his music and the happiness it continues to bring to so many people - that is how I choose to remember him
Rest in love, Michael, I hope you have finally found the peace you deserve
If you are an adult struggling to come to terms with an abusive childhood please seek help http://www.napac.org.uk/